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Today I took Arlo to Forest Park and I was reading and he was digging a hole.  It was fun, except I almost fell asleep reading my book... so we left, because I thought it dangerous to fall asleep in the park.

I have decided to stop reading this book (Kaleidoscope) because I get super sleepy every time I start reading it. So I'm just done. and I've had it for a week and I'm only on page 74.  Clearly this book doesn't capture my interests very well. 

I had a silly week day off this week because I'm working this weekend.  Boo for working weekends.  I want a job with a desk and a rolly chair that makes more money and doesn't have to work weekends. One must have experience (and advanced degrees) to get one of those jobs.  Thus I work in the hospital and then will go to school and one day I will have my chair and desks and free weekends. 

I am going to start writing my statement of purpose for graduate school applications. That's always a fun process.  I really need to sit for a while and figure out exactly what my purpose is. 

Components:

Mental Health Reform

Psychosocial Rehabilitation

De-stigmatization 

Helping people

Teaching people

Learning

I just don't really know how to say WHY I want to do these things and THAT is what I need to figure out.  Right now I just feel so tired. But I'm going to get to work.

Until Later.

I almost forgot I had a blog.

So, it's that time of year when I start applying to Graduate Schools again.  I honestly hate grad school shopping. I have recently gotten a job and apartment in St. Louis, so I'm looking for places around here.  I'm taking suggestions and recommendations, specifically for an MA in Clinical Psychology. Here is my list so far:

SIU-E

Murray (I know thats not close and would require a move to Kentucky)

and (maybe) SLU if they offer a lone masters degree...hopefully they will email me back about that. 

I thought for a little while that I would just go to nursing school, which may still happen if I don't get into grad school again. But I'm realizing that I would prefer to not work (ultimately and forever) in a Psychiatric hospital setting.  I want to help people, like really help them ...people who want to be helped and help themselves. I want to be in Outpatient PSR. 

**If I get one comment about being a Social Work major, I will kick your ass**

So my job:

I am a Psychiatric Therapist....which is a Psych Tech....which means I work on a Psych Unit at a hospital where I watch people with serious Mental illnesses and keep them from hurting themselves or others.  I have interesting stories and I've only been on the unit for three weeks.  I've seen lots of people who have really needed to be there...and some who really DID'T need to be there. The ones who didn't need to be there are the ones I feel the most sorry for.  Imagine if you were on a locked unit with a bunch of people who are responding to internal stimuli and experiencing delusions of nuclear attacks on Carbondale...and you were sane...but the doctor tells you you have to stay there. They get kind of angry.

So far, one of my patients tried to strangle another patient, a guy had a seizure like experience (the nurse swears it wasn't a seizure) because the nurse wouldn't do anything about his chest pains, a man shouted at me because he thought he lost his refrigerator (which he didn't really have), one of our patients was an accused rapist of young girls (3 specifically) and one apparently, was recently released from prison for murder. Everyday is an adventure...let me tell ya. 

Apartment is good, dog is good. Dog has been barking a lot lately.  The other night there was a cat outside the window and he was just going crazy.  And I was trying to sleep it was like 3 am and I had to get up at 5.